Monday, March 06, 2006

Mt. Kilimanjaro

I just spent the past week hiking to the top of Mt. Kili. It was one of the most amazing weeks of my life. Every day I had hours and hours to just look and wonder at God's incredible creation. I wish I could put into words how beautiful it was...

When I was in Phoenix, my pastor gave a message about sacrifice. One of the illustrations he gave was about climbing a mountain and he challenged everyone to, "live where it is hard to breath." He went on to explain how when you are at the top of that mountain, it can be so difficult to breath because of the altitude. Even though it can be so difficult to breath, that is the place that God wants to bring us, but it doesn't come without sacrifice. I had that analogy in mind the entire way up the mountain and the Lord really spoke to me throughout the week about climbing spiritual mountains.

I realized as I was hiking up that there have been many times in life when we use the word "valley" to describe where we are spiritually, when in reality...just because we are struggling, does not always mean we are in a valley at all. The last day that we went to the peak, each and every step became so difficult. It took us about 7 hours to go less then 3 miles, but because we were so high and had so little oxygen, we had to hike so slow. I realized while I was hiking that I always say I want to run this race that God has called me to with all that I have and in my head, running that race means constantly going at sprinting speed. For me, anything less then a sprint has always meant failure. But I realized yesterday that there will be many times in my life that I cannot run with a sprint...There will be times where I feel like I am going so slow, barely moving, unable to see any progress with my minds eye, but that very well may be because God is calling me to a new peak, a new place where he can reveal himself in an entirely new way and expose me to an entirely new place to share His love. There will be times where God will ask us to sacrifice our plans and dreams and just follow him up to the top and trust Him completely that He knows where and why He is leading us there.

There were times throughout the week that the peak...our destination was covered by storm clouds. I know that there are seasons of life where every step is so difficult, every step makes us loose our breath, and we look up to see the final destination, but it is just too cloudy to see...and some times, it is too cloudy to see even ten steps in front of you. But because God has revealed that peak to us long before the clouds ever came, we have to continue to step forward in faith. The storm clouds will eventually clear, maybe only momentarily, but they will clear long enough for you to see that peak again and know in your heart where He is bringing you.

The last few days of hiking, because of the elevation, we had no appetite or desire to drink water. In those same seasons that are so difficult and painful, sometimes we loose all appetite for spiritual things. It can become difficult to seek God, to pray, and to hear His voice...but in order to make it to that point, we could not wait until our bodies began to crave food and water, it would have been too late...we just had to drink and eat. The same thing goes for us spiritually. I know that in some of those places you may feel so distant and so far from where you once were in your relationship with God, but don't give up...continue to seek him, you are on your way to an incredible place.

At some point on the hike to the summit, the guide turned around and saw that I was falling behind. He just told me to stay with him, to just follow closely behind him and follow his steps completely. When I forced myself to focus on the steps the guide was taking and not on how exaughted I was--it imeadiately became so much easier. As I listened to him tell me that I just thought of 1 Peter 2:21, "to this you were called, because Christ suffered for you, that you should follow in His steps."

Okay...one more analogy. :) In the last few hours of hiking, it was practically impossible to speak. You literally had to plan out each and every word you were going to say. My friend that hiked it with me kept making a point to encourage me...little phrases every few minutes to let me know that I was doing good and that he was confident that I could make it. He made his hike so much more difficult and risked possibly not even making it just to encourage me and make my steps a little bit easier. That is so how the community of Christ should be and the type of friend I want to be. We were not meant to make that climb alone, God has placed people in our life to encourage and help us along the way. And there are people all around us that we need to be willing to risk everything and sacrifice our own comforts in order to help them make that next step.

I just wanted to share that with everyone. I know it doesn't really flow so well together, but thanks for taking the time to read it. I will post pictures soon!

10 comments:

Edward Cross said...
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Edward Cross said...

Wow Dennae! Maybe you should be the writer. :)

I love hearing about lessons God is teaching people; it's so encouraging to see that He's working in others' lives as well.

I want to be able to spend more time with you when you get back...there is going to be so much to talk about! :)

Brent F said...

Good for you Dennae...I know it is something we spoke of alot when you were here, and I know it is something you have really wanted to do. Isn't it amazing how God uses the simple things to show us profound truth? Hiking...somthing you have done a million times before. WHAT DOES GOD WANT TO SHOW US TODAY?

Roxana Elvir Rogers said...

Your posting made me cry. I never realized how much i have been up at that mountain. Feeling like I couldn't take one more breath. Thinking that the valley was "a bad thing" versus as you state " i was on top" just waiting to hit the crest to see the beauty of God's creation. Oh Lord I praise you so much for this young woman who sees you so clearly. Who has a gift for writing and sharing the mysteries of your love
Thank you Dennae
Love Mom

Roxana Elvir Rogers said...

Congratulations Dennae and tell Chris the same for such a remarkable achievement!!

Christine Fooks said...

It's funny, I was thinking I wonder if Roxana has read this post...
You have a gift Dennae! Every time I read something you've written I think, "I could read a whole book of this girl's thoughts."
I am so blessed to be family and friends with you!

Unknown said...

i love and miss you so much... i can not wait till you are state side so I can see you and talk to you... =)

Karlene said...

Keep climbing,keep learning , keep growing,keep sharing, and keep loving(God and people!)
Lvoe ya!!!

Anonymous said...

i miss my dennae! :( u better come home soon! Dennae dont make mne come get you!

<3 tiff

Edward Cross said...

Okay, so I know this post is like, 5 million years old, but I thought this song related to it:

Steven Curtis Chapman \ God Follower

My heart is restless as I wander through this jungle
The trees above refuse to let the sunlight through
And somewhere deep inside I hear the whispered longings
That tell me I was made for more than this

A blinding flash of light falls down into the darkness
Slowly I notice strange new markings on the trail
The crimson drops are calling out to me come and follow
"I am the God who made you, let Me show you how to live"
And I cry…

I want to be a God follower
I want to go wherever He leads
I want to be a God follower
I want to walk the trail He’s marked for me
And be a God follower
(More than anything)

And now I journey on with purpose and with passion
Just like a dead man who’s been given breath again
And though this path can still grow
dark with tears and sorrow
I know He will never leave me
So with everything I am I will say…

And when I reach God’s place
I will look into His face
And then I’ll look for you
Will I find you there?
Can you say with me…
I want to be a God follower
I want to be a God follower
I want to be a God follower
I want to be a God follower

I love Steven Curtis Chapman's music so much!